What a year...

So. I have finished my first year of college and have been home for four days. I thought I might post something on here...something of a closure statement since I haven't posted anything in ages. I have found that it is so much easier for me to process my thoughts by hand in a journal. Paper is so much less forgiving, but in that I can put aside my worries of perfectionism. I also find I am much less distracted. But in this instant where facebook again fails me, for I can never allow myself to post a status within three hours of the last, I wanted to vent my thoughts to a computer screen. At that moment I remembered this long lost blog of mine. But yes, as I tend to ramble forgive me, sometimes I must let my mind flow as it wishes it cannot be stopped, it hasn't had this chance in ages and it is just waiting to exploding. So, college was great. It was everything that I had dreamed of and more. Both good and bad occurred, although the bad in the end has mostly turned to the better side of things, even though I still face the repercussions of my decisions. I made some of the most amazing friendships over this year. I studied a lot...I procrastinated more. I found that I have a difficult time keeping myself on track when left to my own devises. Facebook and I have a love/hate relationship. Often I wish I didn't have one, but then couldn't imagine going back to not having one. I grew to know and understand God's love for me in deeper and richer ways than ever. It amazes me that even after I mess up in the worst ways imaginable that He would still welcome me back with open arms. I am still growing in faith, but I know that my God is always faithful, and will give me the strength to carry on. I got my first C in a class, ever. Calculus is definitely not as cool as it once was, even though I am so grateful for the friendships I made out of that class and way too many hours in white board rooms. I went into college thinking a chem major and pre-med...I discovered that I am not quite bent out of the right mindset to tackle such a feat, and along the way decided to major in Psychology, which is definitely a better fit, and I am so excited to see where God will lead me with that! I have learned even more so how distracting and misleading boys can be. I sort of had my first boyfriend, although thankfully God got me out of that relationship when He did, because it was leading no where good. Every day I must remind myself that as soon as I take things into my own hands disaster is just waiting to happen, and God will provide for me in the end, no matter how much I dislike His timing. Overall this was an amazing year, and I could have asked for nothing else. I am sure that I can go on and on...but all in due time.