I have been trying to write this blog for the past two weeks now, or so. Such a struggle, and I'm not sure why. It is quite reflective of the whirlwind of emotions I have been experiencing though. So, I suppose the fact that I cannot write this truly shows my mood. Every day is so different. One day I am giddy and light as a kite soaring through the beautiful blue sky. The next I am sorrowful and lost, trying to understand the ache within my heart. I'm starting to understand the concept that God is faithful, regardless of what I'm feeling.
I am getting to the last of things. My last practicum visit, last official Connect lifegroup meeting...its starting and I don't know what to do with it. Saying goodbye to the dear children and pedagogues at my practicum was the hardest thing for me. Somehow I maintained my composure, but I know that I will never see these dear people again, and it is heartbreaking. Something about the fact that I spent a whole semester with these little Danish children, ten visits, once a week, and never was able to share Jesus' love with them makes me so sad. It was never my place, as a volunteer...I couldn't really speak their language...whatever. One day I was so upset by it and was telling one little girl in Danish that Jesus loved her, but I don't think she really understood what I was saying. My method probably wasn't the most effective though. This practicum truly made my experience here in Denmark so unique and special, and it was very difficult to say goodbye.
Connect, the young adults life group that I attend through FIBC, had a retreat this last weekend, it was wonderful. So, I'm not technically done with that, but last Wednesday was the last actually life group meeting I was able to attend, it was a sad realization, but at least I still know that I can say goodbye to that dear group of friends next Sunday...just a week from today. The retreat was on making decisions, which is definitely a very applicable topic. A lot of what came up in the messages was similar to Just Do Something, by Kevin DeYoung, which I actually read right before coming to Copenhagen. So, I'm pretty sure that God wanted to reiterate that truth in my mind. Along with the truth that no matter what decisions we make we can't mess up God's plan, and as long as we can bring God glory through our decision it will all end up okay. Basically, we need to just do something, and stop being passive. I tended to agree with everything the pastor was saying though, so I think it would be very interesting to see what some other Christian friends might think. Especially in regards to God speaking through signs and miracles...or more accurately God not speaking through signs and miracles. Ah, the fun topic of God's revelation! Because I definitely know I have friends who would not agree with some things said this weekend...I would love to discuss it though, its so very interesting and helpful to discuss these things with people who disagree, because that is how we learn!
Some other things that have been going on...I visited my host family's summer house, which was a wonderful weekend away from the city. The queen had a birthday, and I got to wave to her. Denmark had a couple of fun holidays, Labor Day and Big Prayer Day. Spring is officially here, and the flowers and colors that are emerging make my heart so glad. My Bible study had the most wonderful potluck which turned into a dance party. Really, food, dancing, and good fellowship, what can be better? I have started frantically taking pictures of everything, because I'm terrified I will miss something. I can finally go outside with out a heavy coat, most days anyway. I've done a couple of presentations, one on bicycles, one on a sensory-based learning preschool. I went to a soccer game, Kobenhavn won, 3-0, it was excellent. I visited a Danish speaking church that reminded me of Ignite. I've watched a lot of movies, and have been trying not to eat a lot of sugar. I've gone on lots of walks. And of course, as I only have two weeks left, I've been making a list of things I need to do before I leave.
Somehow in these next two weeks I will finish all the homework I need to do. Debate on Tuesday, final for Developmental Disorders on Friday, study abroad, scrapbook like, book for Danish on Friday, 5-10 page paper for CDD on the following Monday, then my final exam for human trafficking on the last Friday. But really, that is all the least of my worries!
I will miss this city and the people I've met and gotten close to, but I know that what I've learned here will carry me forward. I do not need to worry about leaving. I would rather look at each of these days as an opportunity to grow a little more, and know that if I meet these people again, I will, and if I don't, then that is okay as well. Coming and going is unfortunately a part of our life. I know that it will all be okay, and God has a plan for it all. I just need to buckle up, quit worrying, and move forward looking fondly at these beautiful days I've been blessed with.
I had not read this post yet when I went to Moms in Touch on Monday. There is always a verse of scripture that we pray for all our kids and then focus specifically on one child to pray the verse over more intensely. Providentially the verse this week was Jeremiah 31:13b and I was moved to choose you to pray for, knowing that you were coming to the end of your time in Copenhagen. I was thinking that you, more than some of my other children, would have bonded with the people you were spending time with. I prayed, "Turn Rachel's mourning into gladness; give her comfort and joy instead of sorrow."
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